Monday, June 22, 2009

Haiyo yalah Rachel ! I update now okay !

Firstly, Rachel ! Hope you are doing fine in everything , giving up is really NOT an easy thing to do, so, i admire you sia. HAH !

Hmm.. its been very very very AWESOME eversince we got back together.
Life is just like paradise , i've my beloved, it just feels like i got everything back !

Anyways, holidays MAY be extended due to the H1N1 virus. Cool uhr !!
If extended den i'll have more than enuff time to complete my homework !
Freaking hoping and hoping hard that holidays extend.
And i also heard that thr is gonna be an MOE meeting to decide on the extended holidays due to H1N1 virus.
MUST HOLIDAY !
I sooo wish that I can psycho some MOE dude to insist everyone to have an extended holiday.
Haiyaaa, school should be closed till next year so that can have more time to study for N's !!
Have been working seriously damn damn hard !
More holidays so i can have more time to catch up everything i lag behind on !

Some negative stuff that happen this week is that my mom's sick !
Aww man... sadded !

& sorry Haziq for not replying ! Sucha sucker luh !





Time is precious,
Time is running out,
Time is needed,
Time is wanted,
Time to do something,
Time to end something,
Time is something i really really need at this crucial moment of my life.

SPIN IT
4:48 AM

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Finally ! I can get my sleep , do my stuffs ,
Why ?
SHE CAME BACK ! :D
I thought i'd really lose her forever .
Damn happy damn happy !
Finally !
No more pain , no more sorrow , no more sadness !
I really dont know how to type out how happy im now !
All glory to God !

I wanna special thank Arian for the magic at his fingertips ! Thanks Arian for everything ! Dang, now i owe you twice , lmao !

Vanessa , I promise i'll focus more and not fool around . Loves ! ♥

But here some people i really wanna thank that always gave me their support when
I was down . :
-Rachel
-Haziq
-Arina
-Yingling
-Farris
-Izzuan
-Joey
-Wei Lun
Thanks guys ! I really do appreciate and im glad to have really good friends like yall ! =)



I fell in love with you from the very start
Not even distance can keep us far apart
Girl, i was meant for you
As you were meant for me
No matter what it takes i want this to last eternally

SPIN IT
4:50 AM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The worst day has come.. The most wonderful girl broke up with me after 2 months.. I really cant take it . I can barely survive when she went to Malaysia and now for months, years and forever ?
You promised me that you will last eternally with me
You promised that if we break up , it will be I who will initiate the break.
but after the break , you promised that you will come back to me..
You said you hate ppl making empty promises, what about you ?
Im sorry for being too over-protective and hurting you more than i hurting myself, but i really really really cant forget you .
How can i move on when im still deeply in love with you ?
I didnt cried for Ariel and Michelle, but once you ask for break , my world just turned upside down , my heart turned black and dark , my tower just crumble and fall..
Im always happy , smiling like mad. Why ? becoz of every single message you text me , every single word you said , and every little action you do.
I just nid to really blog this out. I just cant take it..
You told me to tell you all my troubles in my heart.
I poured it all out , and you rejected me in the end.
It isnt fair..
I really want my Vanessa back. i really do..
Tears just cant stop over-flowing, cause every drop is for you.
You love me and why you break ?
I told you before to do things for your own , dont do it for me , coz .. it will turn out this way.
I regret for everything i've done.
The only thing now is to get you back.
I cant live without Vanessa telling me " i love you " every night before i sleep.
I wish this was all a nightmare and soon i'll wake up at the bathroom as my bed is really wet.
I cant move on
You are really my little adrenaline rush in my life.
You boost everything up.
I will nvr fail you ever again.
Please come back to me again.


You gave me a reason
Told me that i'll always be yours
You are my desire
My heart is so on fire for you
I cant stop loving you
Because i dont wanna end up in your rearview
Wanna be someone you can turn to
Baby i never wanna lose you
Theres nothing i wont do

So ill watch you like a movie
I'll sing you like a song
Read you like a story
If it takes me all night long
Keep you like a secret
I'll tell you like a joke
Its true its true
That ill love you like i always do
Love you like i always do


†Please answer my prayer:
Oh lord i need strength,
Lord please help me ..
My world just tumbled and fall
You can work miracles for the blind to see and the lame to walk
Do miracles for me
This year is the year of downturn
But thy miracle seed would give me a hundred full in return
I want and i need my hundred full now Lord
I need to pass and get Vanessa back
Answer my prayer Lord
The one and only who loves and can do miracles in every single life
I need a miracle.
Just one miracle.
To have her back by my side
i trust in you and i cast all my cares and troubles unto you
I gave you my whole life.
You saved my soul
You carry me and put me on a rock when i was on sinking sand
With eternal peace i rest in your arms
Amen†

SPIN IT
6:14 PM

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Felt like blogging agn ?
A secret i feel like screaming it out.
But a secret is a secret.
Everynight is a curse,
Everyday is a sin. No peace for me :(

Hmmm.. nvr blog for a long time le.
How should i start ? hmm... worst day ! why ? Becoz i dropped my nice fresh apple on the floor !
Nooo !!! sadded :(

SPIN IT
5:00 AM